a bitter silence fills the roomstenched with heavy unforgiving doom
eyes blank, fixed on a cold distance
for once with a beady dark resistance
If you can survive me
I beg you to revive me
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America the Ugly
We live in a country controlled not by government, but corporations. You don’t have to believe in conspiracy theories to see this. You get your paycheck…how much of it are you really getting? How much are you paying for food, for rent, taxes, gas, OBJECTS? OBJECTS that are commercialized in front of your eyes every day.
You watch tv and there are the commercials, you drive and there are the huge billboards. Who owns the supermarkets, the stores, the “land”? It’s a vicious never ending cycle, and in the end you’re a slave. The only difference is that you are made to believe you are NOT a slave. They tell you you are a human with freedom and “choice” and opinions. What do you wear? What do you eat? How do you act? Chances are you dress in styles that are portrayed as “fashionable”, or “suitable” for your gender/class/status. You eat what you are told is a “healthy” meal or what you are told is “delicious”. You act in a manner that will let others know who you are…who they make you think you should be.
How valuable are YOU, as a human? Well, in today’s world it depends. Do you have an iPhone? A Macbook perhaps? A BMW? A spacious house whose property tax is more than rent would be? You are what you have, or what others see you have. You are trained to judge people a certain way. Someone sits next to you…You check out their shoes, their manicure, their phone, their clothes, this must be someone valuable because they are a slave who contributes more.
Do you even know what is in your food? In the “vaccines” that they tell you are so mandatory? Do you have any idea how doctors are trained, and what the pharmaceutical companies are all about? Do you know who makes your clothes? Who owns all the companies that you end up feeding the paycheck you worked so hard for right back to?? You might think it’s a cluster of companies, but in the end there is just one huge mother company…one huge corporation whose only goal is making money off of you and nothing else.
All these terms: Autism, ADHD, Bipolar disorder, Schizophrenia, Cancer, Alzheimer’s… We are made to believe that there is no cure and they are in the GENES. Yet all these disorders are simply either a biochemical imbalance or symptoms of a body filled with TOXINS. TOXINS they feed you.
Diet Sodas, Sugar-free, Fat-free, “Natural”, “Low Sodium”, “Low Fat”…Read the ingredients, Nothing but chemicals with unrecognizable names. If you researched each and every single ingredient, you would find nothing but lists of side effects they cause…You are eating nothing but drugs disguised as foods. Preservatives that actually preserve YOU after you die. That’s right, you won’t even have a normal natural death, your body won’t decompose like it should.
Even our free time…we are told WHAT to do. Come home from a cubicle and into another cube you call a “home”, pick up your mail, your bills, some ads…take a shower and watch some tv with some more commercials, read that new book that everyone is raving about, maybe go to that restaurant…That small new restaurant, that will probably go bankrupt in about 6 months.
Come sleep time…Sleep on that mattress, the size that you are “supposed” to have, in the pajamas you are “supposed” to wear, pop that pill that will “help” you sleep…Wakeup and drink that coffee that is supposed to “wake you up”…. What you don’t know is that unless you realize how you are living you will never wake up. You will live a dead life, as a slave. At least slaves back in the day knew they were slaves and had a goal and dream of being free… Today’s world is even worst… You/We are made/forced/conditioned/trained/controlled into thinking we are free and that our lifestyle is our choice.
Big deal, we get to vote for one out of two presidents who will probably end up doing the same things and going into the same wars anyway. Who funds these campaigns? What are they getting out of it? What is behind the martial law? Was there really a flu epidemic or or was it just to sell YOU the vaccine and make money off of YOU and make YOU panic and make YOU more submissive and a more obedient slave for what is more to come.
Drink 8 glasses of water a day, it’s good for you. Do you have any idea what is in your water? Even bottled water, even filtered water… Chemicals that don’t have ANY purpose…Chemicals that make you easily distracted…distracted to watch and buy and work and eat and live a life of a dumbfounded slave who has been stuck with chemicals and toxins. These chemicals don’t keep the water cleaner, they don’t disinfect it, they have NO PURPOSE, NONE but to make your mind easier to control and convince.
Do your research, wake up and smell REALITY, wakeup and look around you, this is EARTH, this is not America, Do you see lines on the ground separating the borders of states? Of countries? Is there really someone who owns where you are standing sitting right now? Who owns YOU? Who are you REALLY? Well, to the corporations you are your social security number…That’s right, your SSN is nothing but a label that is exchanged and bought and sold on the stock market. Look up what you are worth. A LABEL, like the one on the back of the cereal you eat every morning. You are nothing but a number, until you wake up and value yourself for who you really are and what you are capable of.



Just more amazing things you can do with photoshop. The cabin, trail, and pond were edited out of different pictures.
“All I remember are the roses”
A funeral, a wedding…
I really don’t recall
A black dress, or a white dress
Doesn’t ring a bell at all
It was sunny, it was cloudy
Either one will do
It was morning time… no evening
Not sure which is true
If there was laughter, perhaps silence
My ears just heard a buzz
Were they dancing? Or just standing…
To me, It’s all a fuzz
When I try to think…to remember
My memory decomposes
But one thing is for sure,
All I remember are the roses




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